This past weekend I was able to
watch General Conference! I think we had to watch it a week later
because pf translation etc. Luckily, I got to watch it in English with
some of the other missionaries in a separate room haha. One of my
favorite talks was by Russell M Nelson. He talked about how it was so
hard for him to see his patients die as an operating surgeon. One night,
he went home completely defeated and just cried and cried and cried
over the loss of one of his patients. He told himself that we would
never operate on another person again. Through it all, his wife was
right by his side to support him through the night. In the morning she
told him "If you quit now, others will have to painfully learn what you
already know. Get up and go to work." Elder Nelson's main focus of his
talk was on the importance of having strong women in the church. Though I
think that's important, I want to focus on what his wife told him that
night. Since being on my mission, I've come to realize that missionary
work is hard work. Physically and emotionally Everyday, I have to study
and teach and find new investigators and it can really hard at times.
I'll find people and they'll give me fake numbers. I'll call real
numbers and they'll tell me they're too busy to meet. The other day I
met an 18 year old named Bank. I got along with him really well. He told
me he was learning English at the University here in Ubon and that he
was willing to meet with us. I considered him a good friend of mine by
the end of our chat. Anyway, I called him up that night and we set up a
time to meet. On the day of our appointment, he called me an hour before
our lesson and cancelled. He made all these excuses for not being able
to meet with us. I was heart-broken. I trusted this man so much and I
knew he would be willing to accept our message if he had the opportunity
to hear it. That experience was so painful for me. Even though I'm
nowhere near to quitting this work, I've thought to myself if my efforts
as missionary have even been worth anything. The answer is somehow
always a definite "yes. I know there is a purpose for all that we work
for on this earth. In school, work, sports, etc. Why would a loving
Heavenly Father send us here on earth for us to waste time and mess
around? He wouldn't do that. He loves us and knows us and will support
us in whatever we righteously pursue. I think I've come to realize that
here in Ubon and if I just " get up and go to work", things will all
work out. I encourage you all to give your complete effort in whatever
you are working for. Don't get discouraged. "If you quit now, others
will have to painfully learn what you already know." The Lord will bless
us as we keep on fighting on. Stay safe and have a great week!
Elder Rawlinson
From the baptism yesterday!